I suppose I should try to write a blog post for today just to try and develop the habit of posting something—anything—on this site on a weekly basis.
I wish I could say I’ve made significant progress on my comics, but honestly I haven’t gotten past trying to redraw my avatar in a way that better represents me. I suppose it’s still progress. I am still in “creative recovery mode,” after all, and I have to keep reminding myself to cut me some damn slack.
The past week has kind of sent me into a rollercoaster of moods, thanks to my period—which I hate to admit kind of makes me vulnerable to feelings of rage.
I dislike the thought of my emotions being controlled by perfectly normal bodily functions, but I can’t help it when my insides feel like they’re staging a revolution and my head feels like it’s constantly about to explode. It is quite unpleasant, and on the worst days, all it makes me want to do is lie in bed and cry about nothing.
There were several other factors affecting my mood, of course, but for the most part I think I would’ve handled them with more finesse had I not been bleeding—quite literally—on the inside.
On the upside, I’m making some progress on the mentorship thing. I have a lot of thoughts about it that I still need to sort and organize. I guess I’m learning that just collecting, organizing, and replying to every single piece of work from 80+ people is… a damn challenge to manage and balance with my personal projects. I’m still figuring out a better system for this, and better ways I can help a big guild of artists of varying styles and proficiencies. Since I don’t really have any formal training in education, I’m learning this as I go. That’s kind of how I survived the past couple of decades so I suppose that’s not such a bad thing. (CPAG scholars, if you’re reading this, please be patient with me.)
Anyway, I’m still trying to navigate what it means to be independent. I have a few plans but I’m trying to be flexible, so I don’t want to make them public for now but the big goals remain the same: restart this comic, try to help other artists, and maybe make more friends along the way.