My brain is a chaotic place. At any given point in time, I have several thought processes running simultaneously. It’s a wonder how I manage to focus and get any shit done at all.
Every now and then I’d try to manage this chaos by using to-do apps (usually when I’ve just bought a new phone/tablet, or when I’m feeling particularly lost in my own head). I’ve gone through several: Any.do, Wunderlist, Todoist, and even gamified types like HabitRPG. None of them really stick, though. I’d usually poke around each app for a bit, find it useful for about a day, then start to get annoyed when my set recurring tasks start to nag me to get shit done. I’ve also tried traditional pen and paper to-dos.
At first I thought that maybe I’m just using the wrong tools. The only productivity app/technique I’ve managed to really make use of on the regular is Trello, and that’s partially because we use it at work. So I’ve tried using Trello as a GTD tool, which would also work for a short while, but end up being completely ignored after a few days.
Then one fine day it finally dawned on me: fuck to-do lists.
Here’s the thing: it’s not like I’m a completely disorganized failure of an adult. When it comes to my work as a game artist, I’m organized as fuck. I keep track of tasks easily and run like a well-oiled machine (well, maybe 80-90% of the time, at least). Somehow, with work, I don’t have to dwell so much on task management and just do what needs to be done. There is order. There is peace.
For everything else: personal projects, fitness goals, efforts for self improvement and study: chaos seems to be my norm. The more I try to control the chaos in an effort to “do more,” the less I actually get done. I flutter from interest to interest at an alarmingly fast rate, and though I may not be progressing or learning as quickly as I could if I just focused on one thing at a time, I end up happier and less stressed: important for maintaining order where it’s needed more.
So, what’s my point with all this rhetoric? There’s a very delicate balance of order and chaos in my head, and instead of trying to control it with an iron fist, I need to simply “let it go.”
It’s also my long-winded excuse for why I don’t update my webcomic on a regular basis.